I really wish i had the courage to say things i want to say to certain people, things like a simple compliment, farewell, or greeting, but also serious matters and questions and all those other things. Sometimes i think it makes me seem like a douche if i don’t say anything.  I grew up basically afraid of what others would say if i said the wrong thing or people would suspect something i didn’t want them to suspect, so i ended up deciding to just keep things to myself and not say anything, also because people/parents/friends used to always tell me to be quiet, to shut up, or asked if i was stupid and just criticize ever single thing i say. I’m always second guessing on what i should say to people, so if i’m quiet that means i’m thinking of what to say next…

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